Relationships are like picnics – Top 10 Do’s and Don’ts



I was writing an entirely different post about why soulmates are a pain in the ass when I came up with the idea that relationships are like picnics – and then I got completely carried away.   It is Summer, though


One: Don’t serve left-overs from other picnics that you have kept too long – You can poison people that way, you know


Two: Do bring delicious things to share and be generous with them


Three: Don’t show up empty-handed and hungry 


Four: Don’t blame the other person for not bringing enough food for you.   


Five: Do let your friend know if you’re gluten intolerant – don’t make them guess 


Six: Do Be spontaneous and also plan ahead


Seven: Do Vary your menus 


Eight: Don’t mindlessly dish out the same stuff your parents served when you were a kid


Nine: Don’t keep hoping your vegan partner will suddenly dig your meat lovers pizza 


Ten: Make time for them, especially if you’re feeling stressed

The part of me I don’t want you to see




“I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost… I am helpless.
It isn’t my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don’t see it.
I fall in again.
I can’t believe I am in the same place.
But, it isn’t my fault.
It still takes me a long time to get out.

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in. It’s a habit.
My eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault. I get out immediately.

walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

I walk down another street.”

― Portia NelsonThere’s a Hole in My Sidewalk: The Romance of Self-Discovery

Yesterday, I was talking with my wise friend Sandy about being annoyed to find myself in all too familiar territory.  When it comes to relationships, as the saying goes, I don’t like to make the same mistake twice:  I make it two or three more times, just to be sure.   Sandy suggested that we get two chairs, so I could dialogue between the part of me that was frustrated and the part of me that was making the mistakes.     I headed for the latter chair but jumped back up almost soon as I sat down, as if the chair was red hot, so intense was my reluctance to be in that place.

Falling in the hole is like falling asleep and waking up in a different world, a dark place in which I am disconnected from my sources and resources, a Winter place of starvation and survival.  Utterly disconnected from Spirit.   The part that is not merely frustrating, but actually terrifying, is that when I am in the hole I forget there is a world outside the hole to climb out towards. I forget who I really am.  The hole can be a place of excruciating and almost unbearable pain.  It is where I lose the Truth and I am in hell, lost in the suffering of my own mind’s making.

Sitting with relief in the other chair, it became clear that there was much more beneath my frustration about why I kept falling in to that particular hole when ‘I know better’. There  was a deep sense shame and beyond that, such anger, self-loathing about the person I become when I am in the hole.   When I looked at the chair, I felt scorn and hatred at the stupid, depressed, afraid, old, poor, abandoned, needy, selfish, ugly, fat, lonely, lazy, hurting, greedy, despairing, self-destructive, failure of a woman in front of me.   I could hardly stand to look at what I see.  And I certainly don’t want anyone else to know these parts of me exist.

But suddenly, something shifted inside me. I felt the hatred dissipate, replaced to my relief with a new understanding.  I stood up, instinctively knowing that this new feeling didn’t quite belong to the parts of me in either chair.   I placed a cushion in between the chairs and moved towards it to represent this expansive feeling, quite literally a new perspective.     I realized that this feeling which I couldn’t quite identify at first, was recently familiar.   And then it came to me.  It was the feeling I had with one of my patients, earlier this week when I could hardly bear to see her suffering and had been overcome with tears of deep grief at not being able to take away her pain.   It was Compassion.

Compassion for the one in the hole, but also as I looked at both the chairs, for the other one, the one outside who is so afraid to see the horror in the hole,  terrified that if she gets too close,  people may see the resemblance, decide she is broken and un-loveable and condemn her down there too.  Seeing this it becomes so clear that if the one outside would choose not to turn away, she could throw a rope to the captive in the hole and set her free.    Which reminded me of the last line of the piece I had written about my patient;

“If love could build a ladder out of suffering, I would have her touch the stars tonight.”

It seems fitting to be illuminating my inner darkness on the Summer Solstice.   And I wish you the strength and the courage to remember to shine the light of compassion into the places where you suffer, so we can heal together.  The fearless gaze of love will set us free.


The Love Seat


“The Love Seat” is public spiritual practice as performance art.   I am seated on an inflatable love seat and I invite people to join me and rest in my arms to be held, nurtured and healed by the power of unconditional love.


Dealing with fear and feeling like a failure



Fear is such a formidable foe and self-doubt can be a lethal assassin.   You may – or may not – have noticed that you hadn’t heard from me for a while.  When I look back on the past six months, fear has played far too great a role in my life.  Fear caused me to remain stuck in a situation that wasn’t supportive to me for too long.  I got paralyzed in the uncertainty of how to find my way out of the maze I found myself in.   Then self-doubt began to creep in and I ended up so afraid of making the wrong decision that I became unable to move forward at all for a while.  I probably would still be there if finally, a tsunami of fear about what was imminently going to occur if I didn’t do something propelled me out of my inertia and back into motion.

Then some stuff happened, some of which really sucked.  I collided with some consequences that could have been avoided, had I not been imbibing a fatal cocktail of three parts denial and one part positive thinking. I still would have been ok if it were not for the chaser of some really random bad luck, heartbreak, a health crisis and someone saying something to other people that they were asked not to.   Cue train wreck.  And people I care about having opinions about said train wreck which led me to feel really, really bad about myself, as if I needed their help at that point.

The need to get it right, this adventure  called life, can lead us to all kinds of craziness in the pursuit of the myth that there is one perfect way to do it and if you can figure that out, you will have the secret talisman that will protect you from all failure, heartbreak and danger.

That inner voice that berates me for what I should or shouldn’t have done, that tells me I should have known better, done better, been better is so familiar and so ingrained that it’s actually quite a challenge to even get to the place of considering it a choice.     But the advantage of falling apart, is that sitting in the ruins of one’s old life, there is ample opportunity to look at each brick and figure out how it serves me and if I want to rebuild with it or not.  And I have decided that this way of dealing with things isn’t how I want to do it anymore.

This week I was at a Quaker style memorial service and a man spoke about wanting to be part of a community of people who makes mistakes really well and I found that a very inspiring idea.    The idea is to be able to accept and acknowledge that mistakes are a normal, natural part of our journey and to be able to make them and recover from them with grace and gentleness towards ourselves and others.   What an amazing concept.

So how to apply this idea? Let’s be purely pragmatic for a second;  If your immediate goal is to suck less at some aspect of your life, to get different results you are going to need to do some things differently.   This is going to require a degree of change in behavior on your part.   Changing behavioral patterns requires motivation and a degree of persistence,  Shame and blame are not recommended as tools of leadership and motivation for a reason – people don’t respond well to them.  People who are freaked out and feeling kind of shitty about how things are going respond even less well.  People who are at the end of their resources… well, you get the idea.

Survival is the preserve of the Reptilian brain – or, as my very wise and clever friend Dave Asprey calls it, your Labrador brain.   I like the labrador analogy for your subconscious a lot.  Imagine if you will, the cutest, fluffiest, most adorable Labrador puppy in the world.   You want this puppy to get from A to B.  Puppy, for various reasons which might include being majorly distracted by something along the way, or that it hasn’t learned how to do this yet, goes on an extreme detour and rolls in something yucky, and sticky, very, very sticky.   So sticky, it’s little paws get stuck and it gets frightened and maybe even makes a little whimper.

You, being your conscious mind in this analogy, now storm in there and scream your scary grown-up head off, telling puppy all about how stupid it is, what a failure it is, what a mess it’s made, how it should have known better, how you don’t think much of it’s choices, asking it if it  didn’t think before it got itself in this mess.

What is the end result?  Puppy any nearer to B?  Nope.   Puppy got any clue how to get unstuck and get itself to B?  No. Puppy learned anything that it is going to help it avoid this situation in the future?  Don’t think so.  You wouldn’t do this to a puppy, so why do you do it to yourself and why do you let other people do it to you?

What I am beginning to see is that a better approach is to gently remind yourself that your life is a work in progress. Arming yourself with a sense of curiosity and permission to make mistakes along the way will allow you to explore and learn what works and what doesn’t.  You are learning, you don’t need to beat yourself up so much along the way for not having been omniscient.   What you need is for both you and other people you listen to, to acknowledge that pointing out the ways in which you or your life sucks right now is both redundant and just magnifies the problem.       In moments of weakness and failure, it is being reminded of our capabilities not our ineptitude that will enable us to get things back on track.

I want to be part of a community of people who make mistakes really well, will you join me?


The rollercoaster of unhealthy relationships



There is no aspect of life more ripe with opportunities to grow than our relationships.  It also seems to be perhaps the most difficult and often painful way to learn.   Sometimes, I get the distinct impression that I may have been a little over confident when I signed up for what I wanted to achieve this lifetime.

I can see it now,  back in the place it all began, way before I was born. A fluffy, nebulous space of brilliant, white light.   There I am, in my shiny soul nakedness, just brimming with enthusiasm about my coming incarnation,  having a chat with God about what I might like to learn this time around.



” I’m so stoked about this lifetime, God.  I’m totally inspired and excited.   This is my time, I can just feel it.   This is gonna be my last time around. I just know it”

“There’s no reason to rush dear.   You have all the time in the world to complete the syllabus.  Besides, this is infinity,  you don’t get extra credit for finishing ahead of time” God chuckles, being particularly partial to a pun.

“No really, God.  I’ve been over the last one, I see exactly where I went wrong – I know I’m ready. You know, you really had me with that parenting thing.  You really got me going.  I just have to tell you, that is the most brilliant way to teach unconditional love, I don’t know how you come up with this stuff.”

“Oh, well you know… I’ve had a bit of practice, and of course the omniscience thing is handy, “  God murmurs, with customary modesty  “Anyway, back to you. Have you had a think about what you might like to try this time?  I thought you might like to give Life Purpose 101 a go”  He suggests gently.

“Life Purpose?  No way God, I want you to really challenge me this time.   I want to do Relationships again, but this time, take off the training wheels, I’m going for Gold!”

” Ahh, hmm, I see.”  God pauses, for quite a long time, until squirming, I interrupt the silence

“God, I know what you’re thinking..” God raises an eyebrow

“Well, erm, no obviously not” I respond a little sheepishly “The thing is God, I just wanted to say that whilst it may have looked like a bit of train wreck from your perspective, especially towards the end of  my marriage, I feel I grew so much and I have given it a lot of thought and… well,  I just know I am not going to make the same mistakes again”

God tactfully says nothing and look into the middle distance.   In retrospect, I can see he was probably mulling over the free will issue and how difficult it is to uphold when you really just want to steer your creations away from the impending cliff edge of their own self-destruction.

“Trust me on this, God.  I’m ready.  Don’t hold anything back,  I want you to give me your best shot.”

“As you wish, my child, as you wish.”


And here I am.   Stumbling clumsily between the ego: “why is this happening to me?” and highest self: “what am I being shown here?”.   Some days, some years, some relationships it feels like the time I misguidedly imagined I could become some other version of me who isn’t terrified of rollercoasters and got on Space Mountain at Disney.

I’m holding my breath, clenching my teeth and hanging on for dear life.  All I can do is try to remember that this crazy rollercoaster ride through the darkness only feels like it is going to be fatal.  That it’s going to end and I’ll be back in the light pretty soon.  In the light is where I feel like  I’m finally getting it.   I can see where my patterns are, painful as it is to really see them.    But it is in becoming conscious that we can finally choose a different behaviour and that’s when we get to choose to stop the ride and get off.

A prayer or intention for the rollercoaster of unhealthy relationships 

Dear God, (or Goddess, Universe, Highest Self…whatever works for you)

Please heal the part of me that permits and accepts unhealthy relationships.

Teach me to protect my inner child from people who hurt her/him, even unintentionally.

Show me that forgiveness doesn’t mean staying connected at the expense of my well-being.

Remind me that it’s not my job to try to heal or change other people but simply to learn the lessons I am being shown.

Help me surrender, to trust and let go.

Amen (or So Be it, Thank you, Om Shanti)

4 secrets to goal-setting success


One week into January and for the vast majority of people, the New Year’s resolutions they made with such good intentions have already bitten the dust.

Lack of will power is only part of the problem, your resolutions may be doomed from the start because the way they have been created is a set up for failure.

Whether or not you are in to the whole resolutions thing, new year always seems like a good time to set goals, so here are a few tips to help you come up with some you can actually achieve this year. 

1) Getting down to business

Let’s start by taking a look at how you can apply some of the best practice from the professional world to your personal goals.   In the business world, people often talk about setting SMART goals.  This may sound familiar if you have ever worked at the kind of job where they do annual reviews.

The acronym SMART most commonly stands for Specific, Measurable, Attainable, Realistic and Timely.     But this is not the only definition. Others I have come across include “Significant, Meaningful, Agreed Upon and Rewarding and Tangible”  and “Stretching, Motivating, Action-Oriented, Relevant and Trackable”.    You can choose either or combine terms from all three to come up with the set that feels right for you.   What you now have is a tool to test your goals.   Every goal you set should be able to meet these criteria.

Specific and Measurable

Saying you want to get fit is way too vague.   Make the goal very specific and measurable so that you know how long you have to meet it and can say, in an objectively observable way, how you will know you have met it.   For example, if your goal is to lose weight and lead a healthier lifestyle, you could revise it by substituting one or all of these types of goals.

  • By March 31st, I will lose four inches from my hips
  • In six months time, I will be able to run 5k without stopping
  • I will go to the gym at least once a week, at least three weeks each month.

Attainable and Realistic 

One of the most common reasons that resolutions fail so early and so often is that people set unrealistic goals for themselves.   Placing the bar too high is a sure-fire way to set your-self up for an early failure.    By way of example, let’s say that your New Year’s resolution was to give up smoking and that you made it through January second without a cigarette.   Woo Hoo! Then on January 3rd, life throws you one of its crappier curve-balls:  You get some bad news or break up with your girlfriend and in a moment of weakness, you console yourself with a smoke or three.

“Aha!”  Says your self-sabotaging inner critic seizing on the opportunity to kick you when you are down.   “I knew you’d never be able to quit!” he sneers,  “So much for your resolution.  Well, at least that’s over and you can go back to smoking with confidence now.”

Game over, till next New Year’s Eve.   But what if, on the other hand, your resolution had been less black and white.    Say it was to reduce the number of cigarettes smoked by at least 50% in the first month.  Looking at the very same experience, you would have reflected that you had gone cold-turkey for the first 48 hours, fallen off the wagon but been able to get back on again on the 4th, feeling pretty awesome that you had already exceeded your goal.  See what a difference perspective and the way you set up your goals can make?

Timely, Tangible and Trackable

By breaking down the big goal into smaller more easily attainable baby-steps, you build in an early taste of success that will keep the motivation flowing.  Make them as small as you need to, to be certain you can get yourself off to a winning start.  If the idea of quitting smoking seems improbable to impossible, chunk it down.     Can you go a week without smoking?  Then start there.  If you know a week is going to be a struggle, perhaps one day is a better first step.

2) Utilize positive thinking to overcome resistance

Another common failing with New Year’s Resolutions is that they fail to address the complex psychology involved.   Our bad habits are rarely rational. Telling ourselves that smoking or over-eating is not good for us is not usually that helpful.    Telling ourselves that we ought to get fit and exercise is not powerfully motivating.   Throw out the resolutions that included any hint of Should or Ought or those that have a foundation in Shame, guilt or self-criticism.  These are not smart ways to motivate yourself.

Think instead about how you want to feel once the goal is achieved.  Focus on the positives of the desired outcome.    For example, many brides are able to diet successfully for the first time prior to their wedding because they are focused on how they want to feel good about themselves on their wedding day.   Spending all the Saturdays in Spring in your basement is probably not an appealing thought, but imagining the sense of satisfaction once you have got rid of all that clutter, gives you a powerful reason to start organizing. (And I have to tell you, I feel AWESOME about all the organizing, throwing away, donating and selling I have been doing for the last couple of months).

3) Take Baby-steps 

Making and breaking Resolutions can be an emotional minefield.  You can create a very useful map of what lies ahead if you pay attention to your emotions, particularly in terms of your resistance and what motivates you.  What are the perceived and real risks and benefits of any change you are seeking to make?    One of the common obstacles to both quitting smoking and losing weight is the powerful resistance that comes in the form of not wanting to experience a sense of deprivation.    Imagining a life-time of having given up or going without something that may be pleasurable can trigger your inner teenager to throw a toddler worthy tantrum.

A nifty trick in this instance, is to renegotiate the action ahead to a level that is way less threatening to the part of you that doesn’t want to change.   Back to the smoking example, when temptation arises or a craving hits, you can take some of the internal pressure off immediately by reframing the commitment as a choice.    Instead of dealing with whatever comes up when you think about never smoking again – try telling yourself that you are choosing to get through the next fifteen minutes, five minutes or even 60 seconds without having a cigarette.   And at the end of that period, you are going to choose again.

4) Understand what motivates you 

Perhaps the biggest key to success is to figuring out what really motivates you. Perhaps it’s accountability, in which case, you might want to join a group or make your goals public on Facebook or amongst some other people that it would be painful to disappoint.  Add some incentive to accountability and you have the “Biggest Loser”.   I had been trying to lose ten pounds for the longest time but when my workplace put on a Biggest Loser competition and I found out the first prize was over $500, I became more motivated than ever before, lost 15 pounds, and have kept it off for three years.  If you are more into carrots than sticks, what rewards can you promise yourself for goals you achieve?  Perhaps it will be a vacation at the end of the year with money saved?   Perhaps it’s a series of little gifts or treats? A mani-pedi each month that you have met the goals?

Reverse Psychology

At the other end of things, you can use losing money as a motivator.   Perhaps you will set up something like a Swear Jar and pop in $5 every time you curse.     If you really want to raise the stakes, one of the most powerful motivators I have come across is to think of an organization, cause or political party that is most opposed to your views, the more dramatic the better.    This reverse psychology has been researched and found extremely effective, so it might be worth a try if all else fails.

Think of something that would make you absolutely cringe to have your name associated with and then write out a check for a significant amount of money addressed to it or them.   If you can’t come up with a cause, you might be able to think of a person, whom it would really pain you to pay out to.  Once you have written the check you need to get it out of your hands and into safe-keeping with a trusted friend or colleague.    You can even ask me to be that person for you.   Just bear in mind it needs to be someone you can rely on to stand firm no matter how much you might try and persuade them you have changed your mind.   Meet your goal and they tear up the check.   Bail and into the mail it goes.  If you like to do this type of thing more publicly, I just discovered that there is even a website that can do all this for you called Stickk.

Yes, you can

So remember, it doesn’t have to be January 1st for you to set a resolution.  If you are still on track, I hope these tips will help you to keep up the good work.

If things haven’t gone as planned, take heart.   Dust yourself off and and get back up on that horse by reviewing, renewing or redoing your resolutions, setting SMART goals instead and make this the year that counts.   Keep me posted on your progress.

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